i always think that i’m a career-oriented type of person, i believe i would be happy if i were a career woman. i keep searching for jobs which suit me, i’ve worked in few industries, in few work fields, all were different from each other. marketing (banking), administrative , corporate communications and corporate secretarial lines in just 5 years!! u can tell what a “job-jumper” i am😅.
i keep searching something that i’m sure i won’t get because you know what? actually, i’m not a career-oriented type of person!! yes, i am!! i realized that everytime i got calls for job interview, i started to feel bad about leaving my kids for work. i applied jobs with enthusiasm but then when i got called for interviews, i will have guilt running through my veins. then, when i go to the interviews, i will feel more guilty and start to feel that working is not for me. i will screw up the interviews, not giving my best.
now i know that i don’t want to work but i want some purchasing power. my loving husband provides me enough monthly allowances but being me, a shopaholic, it’s never enough for me though😅🙈. ok, this is the main problem actually. so, yes, rather than wasting my time, energy and money on going for interviews which i know the answer will always be against me, it’s better i channel all the resources i have to something that can benefit me.
i believe i love working but not working for someone else, i love working for me, myself. now, let's start the quest of finding the right job for me. emmm how about being a REN?😆
i keep searching something that i’m sure i won’t get because you know what? actually, i’m not a career-oriented type of person!! yes, i am!! i realized that everytime i got calls for job interview, i started to feel bad about leaving my kids for work. i applied jobs with enthusiasm but then when i got called for interviews, i will have guilt running through my veins. then, when i go to the interviews, i will feel more guilty and start to feel that working is not for me. i will screw up the interviews, not giving my best.
now i know that i don’t want to work but i want some purchasing power. my loving husband provides me enough monthly allowances but being me, a shopaholic, it’s never enough for me though😅🙈. ok, this is the main problem actually. so, yes, rather than wasting my time, energy and money on going for interviews which i know the answer will always be against me, it’s better i channel all the resources i have to something that can benefit me.
i believe i love working but not working for someone else, i love working for me, myself. now, let's start the quest of finding the right job for me. emmm how about being a REN?😆
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