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I've learnt that no matter how good you've become,  changed yourself for the betterment,  if a person doesn't like you,  she will forever dislike you. I've learnt that no matter how nice you are to a person,  if she doesn't like you,  she will never appreciate you and will forget all your kindness towards her. I've learnt that no matter how you have regretted about your silly mistakes towards someone,  if she doesn't like you,  she will never notice it and will stay that way forever. I've learnt that no matter how big your interest in someone, if she doesn't like you,  she will just ignore you without any guilt. I've learnt that I can never make someone likes me no matter how nice I am towards her.  I've learnt that Allah owns every heart,  hence,  I can never change it for I am powerless.

Tonight,  I thought of my late great grandmother who I called Nek.  She's one of the people who loved me unconditinally,  who loved me with all her heart. I could feel her honesty in loving me. She's the one who pampered me with her tender love and care.  She joked with me.  She chose me over other great grandchildren whenever she needed assistance to go to bathroom because she was most comfortable with me. I would assist her without any fuss although so many times she wanted to go to the loo. I was around 7 or 8 years but I loved to help her. I loved her so much,  even though she was not my biological great grandmother,  even though we were not related by blood,  I considered her as my flesh and blood because I did not know anyone who loved me greatly just like she did. When my parents divorced when I was in standard 1, I stayed with Nek for about 6 months.  It was one of the most precious and memorable events in my life.  I enjoye...

Assalamualaikum! Hello there! I am practically on social media detox program. I would like to make it from today,  6 may till end of raya month,  insyaAllah. My objective is to focus on ibadah. I want to focus on ibadah during Ramadhan,  hence,  start detoxing all social media accounts should take place by right in order to gear up for Ramadhan. Social media accounts (facebook,  instagram)  serve me good by allowing me to re-connect me with my friends and family  but still,  there are cons of them whereby they can distract myself from the true purpose of this life which is to sujood to Allah,  to work hard for Jannah. Browsing others' Ig profiles can take up like 1-2 hours on average,  sometimes it can consume my time up to 3-4 hours,  no joke!  With the luxury of stalking or visiting (more polite way to describe haha!)  others' profiles which are set public for free,  it can change my perspectives as ...

Alhamdulillah for all that Allah has bestowed upon me. One of the greatest blessings is my soulmate,  my husband. Being a wife and a mother,  no matter  whether you are a career woman or a homemaker, is one tiring (emmm what's the best word ya? Haha!) position ever.  In a positive way of course. You get tired and happiness at the same time! Haha!  Being tired is one of normal requirements of being a human being.  We live in this world with purposes,  goals to achieve, hence,  we have to work on that till the end of our breath. In Islam,  we will stop being tired when we're dead. The amount of tiredness experienced by both working wife and housewife is actually  the same!  I have been a working wife (working mom as well) and currently I am a housewife (stay at home mom as well). In both positions,  I experience the same amount of tiredness. It's the SAME!!!  Seriously,  I don't  understand why the...